Phoenix Enthralled

The components of my life which center about Trish -- lustrous lady of a sacred world -- have remained fairly constant for the last couple days: cooking breakfast, sometimes pancakes, sometimes French toast; listening to the stereo after breakfast; the taxi ride to work; eating veggies after work; playing the keyboard while she's in the shower -- I've about memorized the chords to Light My Fire; cooking supper (last night we had chicken); then waiting around for Trish to finish her daily chore (yesterday she cleaned Ula-tek's cage); watching TV (Buffy this time around); then going to bed with Toastie Bear cranked. What's changed is the sudden Drive to finish Phoenix Enthralled. This has come in place of Ted & my TC story. I at least want to finish the outline, & scan the body of Part I into the computer. Because I think that their advice might be so lame, & with ebbing vision making it harder & harder to remain in the group, I'm not Crittering this one. It's a symbolic story; I know, Stan wants me to concentrate less on the symbols, but I'm afraid 90% of the Critters wouldn't even be aware of them, & would make suggestions that would damage the underlying matrix that supports the surface. However, I'm not leaving Critters unless I have to, because my participation ratio is so high that -- well, maybe I don't have to; can do an RFDR & have the story critiqued that way. I'm not running it thru the queue. Takes too long & you get people coming in in the middle of the novel. I feel the Abilify, like the submarines 30 years ago, are giving me the ability to complete the thing without all the "help" from teenage D.A.R.E. brats. Teenage D.A.R.E. brats want my Dick & not my Philip K. Fantasy!